Carry on Castle: Living with Grief

I dropped Baby Girl off at school this morning and talked to her teacher for a minute. Her teacher mentioned a paper baby Girl wrote that was very well done, "she takes after you" the teacher said. I replied "No No No she gets that from her dad" "Well maybe she gets it from both of you"  ummmmmmmmmmmmmm I let it go but No No No she gets it from her dad.   I've been going through his papers some more, I came across this one he wrote his Jr. year of high school.  I'm not sure what the exact assignment was but I do know this goes above and beyond because nobody in 11th grade writes a 11 page poem. Unless your name is Dan. Dan did because Dan could, because he was a phenomenal writer. I wanted to share his poem with you just because I am so blown away by it. This is what Dan said about his poem: “I’m kinda proud of the fact that I wrote this all in one sitting because it’s almost twelve pages long of poetry, all one ...

So I am a huge Hamilton fan. I think most of America is a huge Hamilton fan, I only know three people personally who are not Hamilton fans; my dad who says they sing so fast you can't understand anything, he's old I guess. One of my besties who is pretty oblivious to the whole Broadway musical thing and said I shouldn't name my chapters after Hamilton lines because nobody would get it, she also doesn't like hiking, shes an anomaly. The last one is Dan; Dan was not a Hamilton fan, rather I don't think Hamilton had come out before Dan died, if it had it was so new that we hadn't heard of it yet. Dan never got to experience the greatness that is Hamilton. That's what you get for dying Dan. I know though that Dan would have loved Hamilton, had he been exposed to it. Dan and Hamilton have a lot in common; well Dan wasn't one of the founding fathers of the United States but they did both die prematurely and they both wrote "like you need it to survive...

I am going to admit I don't really know much about Christina Applegate, She's an actress, I know that. What I remember her most in is the sitcom Married with Children where she played a rebellious teenager who wore questionable clothing. I used to watch that show all the time when I was a kid, I don't really know why, probably because my older brothers watched it, I bet they watched it for Christina Applegate. I'm sure she has been in other stuff since then, I couldn't tell you what it is. Then this month I found a new hero.  I was in love before I ever saw the first episode of Dead to Me, I was hooked with the first commercial I saw for it. Why? Because she is exactly like me, she even has my name Jen.  In the show Dead to me Christina Applegate plays Jen. Jen is about 40 give or take, she has a 14 year old and a 10 year old.  Jen's husband died suddenly and unexpectedly in the middle of the night. Yup I can relate to that. The opening scene is a neighbor...

I went on a field trip with Baby Girl. I think it's the last field trip I'll ever go on since she will be in Jr. high next year.  I've been on every single field trip shes ever had except for one. We went to a play and it was lovely but really has nothing to do with this story. On the bus ride home I was sitting in the seat with Baby Girl. Across the aisle was her friend Sally. Sally is a good school friend but has never been over to our house to play or vise versa.  Sally is also new to the school this year. Behind Sally is Rhonda. Rhonda is just a girl in her grade, there not really friends. She's been around for awhile but she wasn't around the year daddy died. On the bus and Rhonda asks Sally "Are your parents divorced?" Sally answers with an emphatic NO. Rhonda replies "O your so lucky" then Rhonda asks Baby Girl "are your parents divorced?" Baby Girl answers with a very emphatic NO and Rhonda replies "O your so lucky...