Carry on Castle: Living with Grief

                                                   Me laying on the couch with morning sickness when I was pregnant There was no school today. We had big plans to drive to the coast with Justin and his kids and go the aquarium. We didn't do that. We sat, and we sat, and we sat some more. We did the exact same thing yesterday. Well I suppose technically I sat and Baby Girl laid down. She caught herself one nasty cold Saturday night and has been down ever since. So she watched her favorite TV shows that we've both seen a thousand times and I sat. I sat with her, I sat next to her, I got her food, I got her medicine. Several times she said "I'm sorry I got sick mommy" and "I don't want you to catch my sick bugs mommy" I don't really know where she gets that from, I've never gotten mad at her for gett...

I know I know I haven't blogged in forever. I have so much to write about I may never catch up but just to give you a teaser here is a list of things I've left you all out in the cold about that I plan to write about soon. Christmas How things are going with the boyfriend (good is the short answer) The 4 year anniversery of Dans death Things my therapist said Things Baby Girls therapist said This solo parenting thing uggg dang it I had another one and now I can't remember Also this is a friendly widow reminder; the grief is still there. It hasn't gone away because it's been four years. It hasn't gone away because I started dating, It hasn't gone away for Baby Girl. It hasn't gone away and so I have stopped writing about it. No unlike Dan the grief is still alive and well. I'll blog about it sometime I wrote a book about my grief, you can read it here:   Carry on Castle